Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in neotony's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
2:20 pm	the devil himself visited me last nite.... how much of us is decided in a simple moment of haste i long to believe all is alright in the universe but sometimes this world seem so loveless... Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Monday, September 26th, 2005
6:13 pm	MEN! its so hard to try to blame other people for being inconsiderate when you realize youre a jerk too... i dunno, dont ask anthropology midterm on wed *exciting* its a cool class man im telling you its totally my thing even tho i do need to start making a little bit more sense of things. these theories are hard man... i suspect theyre all mirages of something else... but... WHAT??? Current Mood: i look fwd to picking a smiley (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
12:06 am	My little girl just turned eighteen.... Good times at the hookah... Im striving to be fearless... but im afraid its not that easy... vulnerability isnt my favorite feeling... Current Mood: energetic (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 24th, 2005
10:43 pm	they say ideas can be like acid Getting caught up in the banalities of life makes you lose sight of the essential things. Its so simple its cliché, in know, but bear with me. Its the special relationships in my life that really affirm my existence. I love those moments in life you find yourself in awe of someone. Of a word, a look, a smile, a touch. Its so hard to find that and keep it, and yet ive been so grossly blessed. I realized tonite when you love youve given your heart and soul not only for safekeeping, but nurturing and inspiration. What an amazing thing to genuinely realize in this life. Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
10:44 am	babysitting six kids is fun......... i love spending my friday nights changing diapers, eating pizza and watching "Rudy"... besides being desperately broke i guess it wasnt that bad. being around children always makes me feel weird, especially as i realize i am pretty much at the same level as the two-year old (it was so cute, she wanted to tell me a secret, she wanted to tell me she loves me, now thats a smart ass two year old) it really doesnt seem like that long ago i was also had a tiny body and woke up desperately asking for my mommy and daddy. now im being asked to analyze the origin of the world and the purpose for my existence which is not necessarily a bad thing, its just so contrasting. anyways, i guess i dont really have a summarizing thought on that, it just put things in a lighter perspective for me... Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
2:50 pm	can you keep a promise? a beautiful ben harper song says 'some things never change, some things never stay the same...'which sums up pretty much all of lifes frustrations. a big thing i wish could change but doesnt is...me and you could ask well ana why do you want to change? and i wouldnt know what to answer. that could be part of the problem. im bored, useless, discontent and its so oppressing...my cynicism has often been confused for optimism, change provides a certain numbness. this constant daze is getting on my nerves, its ridiculous because i am actually in a stimulating environment with interesting people around me right now and im being challenged so i need clarity and vitality. I am searching for some kind of significant enlightening, some kind of absolution that will *make a difference* or at least get me by on some notion of meaningfulness for those things... Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
3:37 pm	complexities THE ILLUSION OF TRUTH AND LIFE YOUR SOUL FULL OF FIRE AND BEAUTY A RECOLLECTION OF UNSPOKEN THOUGHTS EVERYONE IS PRESENT IN THIS WORLD A FUTILE THREAD IN A BIGGER GAME CAUGHT UP IN DEEP DARK PASSION AND WHEN WILL I LEARN TO ABSTAIN LIKE ALWAYS -- WHEN ITS TOO LATE Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)